oh me

long time no scratch... 
hmmmm hidup guah gini2 aja nih bree.. whats the f*** is wrong with me??!
guah ngelakuin kesalahan dan kebodohan lagi lagi dan lagi FAKKK!! ga pernah ngehargain apa yg guah punya, dan baru sadar setelah mereka pergi!!
am  i kind of asshole?? no i think im just an idiot who never ever appreciate people when around meeverybody looks so happy with their life now... but not me?..
I may look happy...but honestly dear.. the only things that can make me really smiles if you cut my lips from ear to ear !!
now everything has gone away... and i really hate my self now...
I wish i can find someone who loves me as much as i hate my self now!
I wish I could have quit you.
I wish I never missed you and told you that I loved you every time I fucked you.
The future that we both drew and all the shit we've been throughObsessed with the thought of you the pain just grew and grew!
How could you do this to me?
you hangout with someone not new and that hurt my pride so much..
i can't believe that it's you, fall in love with cross religions boy..
after what you say about people who has been around you and like you..
but you choose not too, because of their religions too..
now i can't trust you anymore
Look at what I made for you..
I used to be love struck, now I'm just fucked up!!
Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest..
But i think my fears are over now..
I can leave with my head down now..