koyaditya

Dear you

this maybe the last thing that i write for long..

speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously infantile and always complain..

and because of that now i loose everything..

i thinking of you every night.. every single night..

pray to the GOD.. 

try to convincing my self that i can make you happy..

but the result always the same… 

i will never ever make people happy around me..

And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function as a man..

i cry last night for the first time after so long..

because of your attitude, your response for all my message and my offer, to get back again with you..

i know i'm wrong… but i never think that you will hate me this much..

but i know i deserve it.. cause i know i hurt you more..for that i'm so sorry..

i want to fix it all..but you don't give me a chance.. 

even as a friend not best friend, just a friend..

i know i'm not good person to be your friend..but please give me that chance..

the chance to fix all, the chance to repay all of your kindness..

i realize that i don't deserve to be with you..

because I'm those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone..

and you deserve better.. you will find someone much much better than me jing..  i know you will.. 

your beautiful, smart, easy going, care, kind, and lovable

the only thing that i don't like from you, is your smoke habit.. please change, not for me or anyone else...but for you..for your health 

There's good in all of us and I think I simply love you too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad, the sad because not so sensitive and unappreciative you when you around me..

thank you for your concern during the past month.. 

thanks for all your kindness, love and empathy..

but most.. thanks for the adventure 

~love

  Yoko

Please Note and Remember!

this not your fault..

this is not about you deserve it or not..

throw all your guilt and your fear

this is just because of me..

my fault.. my infantility.. my arrogance.. 

my big ego, and my stupidity

keep going jing…

For your life, which will be so much happier without me..

i love you, i love you!